It's Monday morning in Iowa and yes it's snowing again. The weather man this morning said that after this two day snow-a-thon we're in the midst of, we'll have gotten twice as much snow as normal! Not surprised but it does make me feel better knowing I'm not just imagining it. I deserve to be sick of snow and winter because it's REALLY been the winter from hell. The irony is that even though I sit here annoyed by the fact I'm unemployed and fighting a serious depression, I'm happy that I don't have to worry about driving to work somewhere. Especially since the majority of jobs today seem to be centered in the Des Moines area only and that commute will be even more then what I've done the past 12 years already. Which has also given me years of anxiety and stress from the weather! Sheesh! So for today I'm going to let it go! I'm home, no need to keep living in tomorrow. Live in today.
For Today. I joined a website called MedHealth that will aid me in my current project. It has a food diary, tracks nutrients, weight, excercise, GERD and lots of other things I don't really need but it's good to know they're there for others who will utilize them. It's a huge community it looks like for support, information and resources to better health. It's free too! So we shall see. I've been trying to reduce my Nexium since it's so darn expensive and I don't want to be on it for the rest of my life if I don't have to. In order to do that I need to figure out trigger foods specifically and I also think I do have Gastritis along with it that exacerbates my GERD. I'm still feeling acidy taste in my mouth more then I should and feel pressure in my esophagus as though somethings are taking forever to slide down. My stomach is bloated too often and I feel generally heavy. I've gained too much weight this winter and know I'm on a downward spiral. My emotions don't allow me feel positive enough that I can commit to true weight loss and I'm not going to fool myself by making promises I'm really not ready to do the work for.
Sooo that said, I'm thinking about what I AM willing to do then! And this is what I've come up.
*Give up all forms of soda for 1 week to test reduction of carbonation and it's effects on bloating.
*Weigh myself today (ARGH it was NOT pretty but the avoidance has stopped for today)
*To keep track off all of the food going into my mouth and be aware of my actual caloric intake
*To drink water more then any other beverage I take in
*To drink at least 1 fiber water each day
*To 'think' about what my body is saying to me and stop ignoring it by doing the work it takes to document document document! And to actually LOOK at it after I'm done 1 week at a time
Those are the only things right now but after writing it down it looks like quite a bit so For Today I feel at least I have a goal other then to just exist and fuel my frugal mind with input.
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