Happy Birthday Mama

   It's my Mama's birthday! She's 76 today. She told me a story about how today's ice storm reminded her of when I was little. She had no ride to work so she had to walk. The sidewalks and streets were pure ice so she had to walk in the grass in high heels. She told me they were 6" heels. I had to stop myself from laughing at the thought this was her version of a 'the fish was THIS big' story. The ice for us today was enough to close schools and keep my hubby home from work but it was by no means a big fish kind of storm. I'm thankful for that because in years past there have been power outages and days to wait for its restoration. Winter in Iowa isn't for the faint of heart and I like being warm. Besides I have to get out tomorrow to the podiatrist and later in the week to service my van. The last thing I need is to damage my leased vehicle or slip and injure myself more than I already am.

    I've been battling hip bursitis and heel spurs especially in my left foot. My foot is so painful now that I cannot walk much and when I do I limp. Putting weight on it is excruciating. My hip after my last injection seems to be doing alright but limping isn't helping it. In fact it's what caused the bursitis in the first place. These are the reasons I've not been working for the last few months. I need to find a different job that doesn't require me to be on my feet constantly which is what my training requires as a pharmacy technician. I'm terrified to have surgery on my foot yet I'm terrified to not have it fixed. I'm anxious about if the podiatrist will even do surgery on my foot. I've read it's usually a last resort not to mention being laid up for weeks and trying to be home alone convalescing. Crutches aren't for the weak and I'm no body builder. We'll see what happens we will see what happens. I know for sure I don't want any more injections in my foot though. The two I've tried have given me no relief and neither has the night splint along with being off my feet a lot. Yes you can also see I have an anxiety disorder that leaves my head spinning in a never ending circle of fearful thoughts so for now it's best to just call it a day. Thank goodness for medication that helps me slow down the spinning thoughts.